So many things......

    The last month has been a busy, and strange one. I had some health issues, mostly due to my being to easily upset and anxious about things that are out of my control. I was having emotional and physical problems. They are getting better thanks to medication for both problems. I need to remember Who is in control. I should have reread my last blog b/c I don't even remember what it was about. So I will just recap what has been going on. The twins' mother was arrested, spent a week in jail before getting bailed out by her boyfriend. This upset me not only b/c of what she did to land there in the first place, but mostly b/c I didn't know how we were supposed to tell the twins this. "Oh, Mommy's in  jail and might go to prison. But don't let that upset you." How do you explain something like this to a couple of 7 yr. olds? Well, we didn't. When she finally got brave enough to call me, she said she wanted to explain things to the kids. It never happened first b/c the weather got bad and she couldn't get over here, and then b/c she took an overdose of sleeping pills?, and ended up in the hospital. She is now in a Behavioural Center for a few weeks. I don't know what will happen after that. I know she has to go back to court of course. She things she will get off on probation. We shall see. But it the meantime all we have told the twins is that mommy is sick and in the hospital. We're not going to say anything else until, and unless, we have to. They have been doing so well. I don't want her mistakes to set them back. It makes me so angry that she doesn't think about how her actions affect her children. But that is that.
     On the good side, I have started talking to one of their Aunt's on their mother's side. I am already good friends with their Aunt on their father's side. It seems like on both sides there is one good relative. Their older brother was having a b'day this last Sunday and I wanted the twins to be able to be there. Their older siblings are now living with their father. So I talked to the Aunt and asked her if she would like to take them to the party. She did and it all went well. It was the first time they had seen their father in months, which is an altogether different story which I will not go into now.
     And on the really good side, which makes me want to cry every time I think about it, Miss B, the girl twin, has made the decision to be baptized this coming Sunday! I am so excited. She had mentioned it to our daughter who had then mentioned it to me. I have just been waiting for her to bring it up, which she did last night in bed. She knows all the right reasons. She knows why she wants to do this. She is young but I believe she is ready.
    We wondered if her brother would want to follow suit when he heard about it, and wondered how we would handle that. He shouldn't just get baptized b/c his twin sister does. But although he was very proud of her, and said I should give her a dollar for it, he said he was not ready. I explained to him that that was fine. He will know when he is ready. It's different for everyone.
    So there we are. All caught up. It's been a whirlwind of ups and downs, but I love them and it worth fighting through the downs to get to the ups.