Ten!

In 10 days the twins will be 10!!!Boggles the mind doesn't it!?!? Just thought I'd recap what's been going on the last year. I am very happy. Things are going very well. Oh, we still have our occasional meltdown, those are never any fun. But they are far and few between and we have learned how to better handle them when they do happen. We also have a girl who seems to think she's already a teenager! Yee gads! I am in no way ready for that!!! Both kids still go to counseling. Steven has been going more than Bay because he was the one having more problems, but I have recently talked to the counselor about seeing little Miss Puberty more often to work on her lovely attitude, and the way she treats her brother. She is something else! :) Steven is doing do much better then he was a year ago. I can see them both maturing and it makes me very happy. Steven also takes Occupational Therapy and Speech Therapy once a week. Homeschooling is going very well too. I never have any trouble getting them to do their lessons. Baileigh is ahead of Steven and I have spent a great deal of time saying, "It is not a race." That's one of the good things about homeschooling, every child can work at their own pace. We are going to have school all summer as it only takes a couple of hours a day anyway. We planted a big garden this year, and got a couple of chickens. We have a zoo going on here. My goal is to teach the twins how to be self sufficient. They also help Dayday mow at home and church, and this year are going to get paid for it. Dayday says they must give some to God, save some (I'm hoping to start savings accounts. ",and keep the rest. This will be especially good for Steven a.s he has a problem saving money. I guess that's all for now. It's been a pretty good year. There have been tough times like I said, but overall I am happy with our progress. Just can't believe our "twinkies " are going to be 10!

Good days!

Ha ha! The title got you right away didn't it? Me, the big complainer, whiner is posting about good days! But basically that is what we are having. We haven't had a meltdown in weeks. There have been problems, and some of them are concerning, but overall everything is going well. They do their schoolwork well. They keep their chicken coop and pet cages clean. They help with chores for free and payment when asked. I am overall a happy mama. And hopefully now that I've written no one has a meltdown. :)

:(

I'M not in a really good mood this afternoon, and I don't know why. We had Apryl from Friday til today, went to Mallory 's birthday party, and basically had a good weekend. Even though we got snowed in. I've never minded being snowed in as long as we have heat and food I'm good. :) We talked about a lot of "issues " over the weekend. That's probably what's got me down. People should really think about how their decisions and choices affect others around them. Steven had a major meltdown this morning because of some things that were discussed this weekend. My bad I guess. Must be more careful. I had to hold him down for a while. It's not a pleasant experience and inevitably makes me sad.

Superwoman!

Yes. That is how I'm feeling today. Depressed. And I'm on medication for that. So what gives? And I'm a Christian. Supposed to turn it all over to God. Right? So what's my problem? Why do I feel like this? Oh, ye of little faith, right? No. I know He's here with me. That doesn't stop me from feeling down. There always seems to be one more thing. Now on top of homeschooling, housework, Counseling appointments, Orthodontist appointments, etc. We can add Speech Therapy and Occupational Therapy. AND I'm supposed to work with him (them) at home too. Because I have soooo much spare time, right? Does anyone see a cape on my back? Because I think I'm supposed to be Superwoman.

Yesterday

I was going to write last night but my facebook page wouldn't behave. Probably a good thing as I was tired and depressed. Feel a little bit better this morning, although our morning's are rarely pleasant and this one was no different. Steven almost always has problems in the morning before his meds kick in. And sometimes he won't take them right away which makes it even worse. Yesterday I felt bad for many reasons. It is hard to be a mom to two children with "issues ", and a Grandma at the same time. I adore my grandbabies. Just hearing their voices over the phone or seeing them makes me smile. But when I have all four together I feel like I cannot be the Grandma I want to be, because I have to deal with the twins at the same time. And I love them too. They are my children too. Not of my body but of my heart. Baileigh adores the grandkids but sometimes she gets her nose out of joint and is not as nice to them, or at least to Reese as she should be. It's her fault he expects her to be his constant playmate. She made him that way when he was a baby. But now sometimes she doesn't want to be and she's not nice to him. Which hurts me too because he's just a little guy and I love him so. There are other things that bother me too. Like when people tell me what we should be doing with the twins, or not be doing, when they have no idea what our lives are like. Like the fact that sometimes I feel like an awful Christian because I get angry and frustrated and sometimes lose my temper. Because I have to take meds myself to keep myself from having a nervous breakdown. Does that mean I don't have enough faith in God? I never thought I'd have to take drugs. I always felt I was a strong person. Noe I don't know.

Back

I have missed my blog so have decided to start it up again. There is such a thing in this country as freedom of speech. I never wrote anything to intentionally hurt anyone, but at the same time I told the truth, and sometimes the truth hurts. I started this blog for a couple of reasons, mostly so that anyone interested could get an idea of what our lives are like. Right now things are going pretty well. Steven's doing much better. He still has meltdowns but not as often and we are learning how to better handle them, although sometimes we don't handle them as well as we should. Homeschooling is going well. They are both good about settling down to do their work. The biggest problem we have is finding the time to time to do it. On an average we have two or three appts. a week. I try to make our appointments in the afternoon because if we don't Steven can't get motivated to do his work. I guess that's all for now. :)

Last Post

I just read an interesting blog about blogging, and as my blog has recently caused me some problem I will not be doing it anymore. My intent was never to upset anyone, it was an outlet for my feelings, good or bad. As a human being I have both of those things. I am not quitting because people got upset with what I wrote. I have a right to my freedom of speech. I didn't tell any lies. I didn't mention anyone's name. I have decided to quit because I don't need any more stress and upset in my life. So from now on if anyone wants to know what's going on in my life, you'll have to ask me. And if you don't care? Well then this is your lucky day. :)